So near. Yet so far.
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Friday, August 25, 2006
sigh~...
long since i last updated...
hmmm...
i'm sick le... very very sick... sickness = love...
haiis... had no one to say out my feelings to... only can kept it inside myself... i feel so lost... i donnoe where's the way infront of me anymore... i'm so scare... suddenly feeling so scare... sigh~...
these few days... was so so so miss her... wanted to tell her all abt it... but i don dare... i can't... haiis... tis morning... while walking to sch... saw something again... sigh~... feelings' weird... i miss her... i wished to chat with her for long... just two person... sent her to and back home... but... all these... has been replaced by another person... a person, who is far better than me...
hmmm...
retributions... are true... it indeed will happen to a person who is very bad before... i didn't dare to tink abt anything anymore... life is just so meaningless... walk road also no need see whether got car anot le... sigh~... i just feel so lost and helpless...
sigh~...
everynite... tried control... but with those peer pressure always given by families... and tinking of her... tear shed down... tinking back... everyting tat i do... is always alone... even tearing... haiis...
remember during tat day of competition... after knowing our results... wasn't feeling so gd... so sat down, lying onto the lamppole by the road side... jy infront of me... we cried... was feeling so down... big ones went over to jy... hug him... jy cried out loud... me... behind... was tearing alone... then she msg me... ask me the results... and i was tinking... where's her... i miss her so much... i wan her to be by me rite now... but i knew it can't came true... and i kept on tearing... until big one's one gf came over and comforted me... but still can't cry out... while going back... tear again on the lorry... haiis... haiis...
i just miss her so much... i'm suffering in a sickness... sigh~... tonite... may not look so gd for me again... haiis... gtg... bubbyes... haiis...
I'm always alone. I miss u so much.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:38:00 PM
7:38:00 PM@
dye hair blue/purple
November 2005